B-Blog
29th of October
Fuck it we ballin ig??!??!??
Anyway unis stressing me out and for halloween my friends want to do a group costume I KNOW IS GONNA LOOK LIKE SHIT!
I wanted to go as strawhat luffy and in my head that would have looked so cool and cute..... unfortunately my loyalty to these dumbasses is stronger than my onepiece-obsession. They want to go as bikers/punks and I have nothing but a cheap zara jacket to my name that could potentially match that.
I guess I'll just have to ask them for help and pray it looks okay on my yellow ahhh skin.
26th of October
I don't know shit for real. But a girl can hope
24th of October
That Interest Page might take longer than expected; I've been busy with uni and I've been meeting up with my crush almost every day :9
And guess what: MANIFESTING WORKS
Yesterday we and mutual friends of ours went to the club, where he told one of them about how he feels about me :D. Soooo it looks like things might still work even if he still is a little attached to his ex gf, but I'm sure that can be solved with time and I will wait until he gets more clarity on this situation.
We also cuddled a little on the taxi ride back :)
20th of October
I am continuing to thug it out, though I keep checking my phone every 30 seconds for his messages. Even now, as I am typing this, we've sent each other 13 snapmessages ._.
YOU KNOW WHAT? NEW MANTRA! If the Universe or God wants us to happen I will welcome it - BUT that doesn't mean I will pursue him myself, I'll just wait for it to happen naturally if it even does. (i hope it does)
Ya'll better not be suprised at my maturity and emotional intelligence - I've always been that bih fr!
To change the topic to something other then boys: I have tested out how to create fixed sidebars and it worked! Obviously I wouldn't know how to do it on the top of my head but maybe soon! I've created a page about my favourite anime but I still have to add the content. I estimate it'll be up in 2 to 3 days!
19th of October
We talked again today and I don't think they're back together but I can tell he still likes her. This is my official sign to back off and get over it for real. It'll be hard because he planned to hang around all week but I'll thug it out fr.
Anyways I studied for like 10 minutes today, it's not much but it's a step towards the right direction :)
And I was busy cleaning up my cousins place just so his mom wouldn't have to - men are useless.
Tomorrow I will try to code a fixed sidebar: I saw manuals for it on a website, yet I still have to understand what each step does, sooooooo be patient!
18 th of October
I'll start studying for college soon, I promise! I'll also take my html more seriously since I'll soon have classes belonging to digital humanities.
But again change of topic, because this lays heavily on my heart: I met up with my crush like a couple of hours ago and everything was going well WHEN OUT OF NOWHERE his ex-girlfriend called saying that she wants to meet and is standing in front of his house ._.
He brought me home to go talk to her and now I feel kinda shitty but I REALLY REALLY hope they won't get back together!!!! He also told me some things about her so I don't even feel that selfish saying that. I am praying and manifesting for them to just stay friends. AND IT WILL COME TRUE, TRUST! he won't get back together with her period.
17th of October
Another day, another lecture in which I had difficulties making friends :/
AGAIN NOT ENTIRELY MY FAULT!
I was kinda shy AND I was also the only POC in that room so yeah.
Change of topic: Why am I feeling upset because my crush is meeting someone else tn? like c'mon I didn't fall that hard - this lowkey embarassing.
16th of October
So today was my first day of college, and all I had was one lecture. It was pretty small tho: only 17 students visited - you'd think that's a good chance to get to know others and carry conversations -> NO IT WAS NOT!
It's not my fault tho, because truthfully all of them seemed like geeky introverts (no shade). As soon as class ended they all practically bolted out the door leaving me and my slow ass behind. BUTTTT I managed to catch one of them at the busstation, we talked and it was pretty chill. I'll bluntly ask him to be my friend the next time I see him; he won't escape that one :)
15th of October Part 2
This is the second part for today, the last one was written around 2 am and currently it's 10pm.
The Results are in:
I will NOT become a threat to global security. My Uni has finally mailed me my admission and although i'ts already a little too late to register for certain courses -> I am joyful, elated - ecstatic even! Don't mind the stuff I said before, I was only experiencing a very valid crashout, besides I'm a 5'3 tall 20yr old soo the expectations set are not very realistic.
Tomorrow is my first day of Uni, I have neither friends there nor a plan of where the lecture hall is. Wish me luck!
15th of October
Some changes will be coming soon.
I haven't been working on websites lately because of all the stress with college/uni. Things better work out there or God knows what sort of menace I will become to society. If my application won't come through at all this semester, then I will make sure the world experiences deviousm to such an extent, that has never been seen before. ANYway I think I'm developing a crush involuntarily. Life is very different compared to a couple months ago, how did that come to be?
07th of October
I decided to change up the homepage a bit, what do y'all think? I initially liked the Batman theme because I am him and he is me and both our names start with a 'B', BUUUT it lowkey (highkey) wouldn't match with the theme of the other stuff.
I took a liking to more goofy and chaotic pages as I feel it represents my personality a lot better :) I'm not quite satisfied tho so expect a lot more changes in the future!
05th of October
Today I started on a new version of the 'About B' Page and it's going suprisingly well.
That project started yesterday when I first wanted to use the Flexbox Skills I earned from a 10min YouTube video... I failed horribly. I still don't fully understand where what specifics went wrong so I just created whole new HTML and CSS files, but turns out: I'm sort of a pro at it now :) I reckon that it is going to take maybe 2-3 days until it's semi-done, so make sure to check it out once published!
03rd of October
I made it! it was actually pretty fun too. I won't update or add anything here today becuase I'm still pretty tired since visiting the function.
(we stayed up until 7 am, add the extra couple of hours i spent contemplating wether or not i was behaving cringey - i slept a total of 2 hours..I won't take a nap tho because I don't want to f up my sleep schedule. rip)
02nd of October
I keep f#cking this up, lol.... BUT I won't give up so expect a lot more f#uckass pages. BTW if this ends here: I'm dead.→ a friend of a friend is picking me up today BY MOTORCYCLE and I've never been on one before and I get the sense that this friend is pretty reckless so yeah....
28th of September
I have no idea what I'm doing.... as usual. bruh this page doesnt support my updates ._.
25 th of September
I've been lazy lately (..i didn't create the interest page) but that's okay because I think I've decided on a major -> it's gonna be History! I promise I'll do my best to not end up jobless like the stereotype for humanity majors..
10th of September, 2025
Have to start creating the Interests Page today, wish me patience...
9th of September, 2025
Although I made plenty of notes about HTML and understand them perfectly, it is taking me some time to remember them whilst I create Sites. So I guess I just have to keep practicing lol.
I also have no idea in wich aesthetic-direction to style my page:
At first I wanted it to be light pink and cutesy, but now I kind of want to go with the 2000's Windows theme and make it look goofy - but idk, I'm literally the most indecisive person ever.
Another decision I'm afraid of making is what bachelor-programme/degree course I'm going to pick for the upcoming semester, because on one hand I have to choose something I enjoy and on the other it also has to lead to stable job oppurtunities......
Life is tough, but at least I'm going clubbing on Thursday.
me to myself if I don't get to a decision by the end of this month ------